Pictures paint a thousand words....Hurricane Ike..Sept 11 - 14, 2008:

There are times when I just want to shut down and refuse to speak to anyone. It has nothing to do with depression or sorrow. It has nothing to do with stress or personal issues. It's just that, I like being by myself.I grew up pretty much alone throughout my life, even though I have a loving family. I have grown to enjoy reading a book on a bus, gazing into nothingness and think about things that didn't matter. I love the time I spend with myself, with nature, with the cold air or the hot breeze, the sunny afternoon or the starry night. It has been a delight.

I enjoy my time alone, with myself, with my book, with my thoughts. And sometimes, I spend my Saturday evening over a glass of wine and some good music and let my mind brings me somewhere else.
I realize that often time by being quiet and all alone, I find myself. I find peace and I find answers to the many things in life. Think through things I don't usually think about when I'm out and about meeting new friends and having exciting conversations.

But out of everything, the foremost, I enjoy spending time alone with my FATHER….becz I know for sure that I am alone but never, never, never lonely…. :))))))))

I am still in recovery....and I've learned that during the time of need and my weakest moment who are my true, true friends.....

Those who are there for me, keep me company knowing that the doctor has not allowing me to drive just yet. Those who call me just to be sure I am okay and not die of starvation....and those who willingly cook and help me keep the house clean....etc....

I know I am blessed to have you: M, C, L, S, D, A, J, H, T.......I love you guys.

Thank you Lord for your blessings....as I continue to heal and resume my daily activities, slowly but surely.....YOU are an awesome GOD!!!

Enough of the election already....the media and the candidates who care only about their own interests NOT the people...

You don’t have to be perfect, to be perfect for me

Love has such a great way of growing.....................

Block of thoughts
I m resting after my surgery.....there are dreams I wish to achieve and it's what keeps me going. I know where I stand and who I'm living for. Who I am trying to please and what I want to prove. Sometimes my life may seem bleak and stressful, but I remember that when I put Him first, everything else will fall into place. I carry my future and all my aspirations in this life in the back of my mind. I'm so blessed to have the friends I have. I would also do anything for them. Looking back through the years, I know I didn't have what most kids in my circle had. Probably even less than the majority, not because they couldn't give it to me, but because they refused to give it to me. I made do with anything, and learnt to live in contentment with the minimalist. I've been to places, cities and seen parts of the world but I still come back to the same place and I've been in all sorts of positions and know the highs and lows. So far, things haven't changed much, but sometime next year I know I won't be here.......I know in His hands my life is full of joy.

I have a prayer ready for my op....on the 22nd.....

Prayer Before Surgery
Loving Father, I entrust myself to your care this day; guide with wisdom and skill the minds and hands of the medical people who minister in your Name, and grant that every cause of illness be removed, I may be restored to soundness of health and learn to live in more perfect harmony with you and with those around me. Through Jesus Christ. Amen. Into your hands, I commend my body and my soul. Amen.

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My bro and I are never been so closed before in our whole entire life....

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In the midst of busy training week and exam preparation tomorrow...this cute-Frenchie guy uses his time to flirt w/ moi.... ;) ;)

BUSY training week!!!!

Love will abide, and take things in stride.

One may say I do not have a romantic bone in my body, but then again, love goes beyond flowers, kisses and even embraces. Flowers may wilt, the tingling sense u get during a kiss may fade after awhile. Even hugs lost it's warmth after some time. To me, love it's best portrayed in the mundane daily activities that we do to make our loved ones happy......

I LOVE U......

HECTIC as usual...my kewl boss is now on his new assignment in Brisbane...when Nov comes and marks my 1 yr anniversary...I would move to my new position :)))))) in Brisbane......

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I have never been sooooo closed with my bro, E before. He came to visit me, spent time w/ his 'lil sis, we walked around my complex..etc...he was worried about my health and the upcoming surgery...but I keep assuring him that everythg'z gonna be alright and to continue TRUSTING HIM.....

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Monday I will be busy w/ my training....one whole week...geez....

Oh, I'm also addicted on http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/home :))))))) try it soooo much fun!!!!

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It'z soooo good to be loved by HIM, friends, fam and "him". He is such a blessing from the LORD, I have never imagined to have someone who would pray with me every night together...he would always call me before beddy time and pray together.....

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Lord, he is loving you as much as I do.......

Thank you Father.God.........

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“Jealousy is a disease, get well soon girl.”

It is a bliss.....life, livin' and lovin' it!

Weekends make out the best of my life, like totally!!!

Weekdays work is challenging fun!!

I've never have so much fun....

I have a loving Father in heaven......

I have a wonderful loved ones..........friends and family

God is wonderful......

Words incomprehensible before u, light up so glaringly bright... that I can't believe I've never before seen such simple truths. whatever's changed in me, I pray remains.

I love u dearly....thanx for another wonderful weekend....

I now know how I can call my true friends.. The ones that i don't see often
but still keep in touch and never get angry and always are there 4 me.. Thank you
S, R, V, M, D, L, J, R, T......... I will always thank God for such nice, genuine people like you

Summer represents for me:
All things bright and cheerful,
Shopping spree - store-hopping
Eating gelati by the roadside,
Al fresco dining
Padding around the house barefoot,
Going to the beach with my friends/my love,
Glowing in a healthy tan,
Sipping strawberry daiquiris,
Lazy afternoon naps on the weekends,
Endless swimming
Receiving summer flowers from my HUN,
Short skirts and colourful shoes,
Blue skies and vivid sunsets,
Waking to the sound of birds
The smell of freshly cut lawn, and
Happy moments with loved ones

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Sorry for the lack of updates as I have been so busy w/ work...and others stuff.... We had a small off-site meeting ;) at a sail boat of the Client...boy I had a blast....the food never tasted so good....





















I totally luv my GOD, my life, my family, my love, my friends, my work....I am praising YOU, my LORD!!!!

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I found out my Cuz went home to be with the LORD 7/20/2008 - the same date 8 yrs ago for my mother......my prayers are with the family. Please stay strong, as you did together during this grieving time.

Perfect description of a Christian...no one has ever put it so eloquently before...no one could say it better than her…Maya Angelou

I AM A CHRISTIAN

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not shouting "I'm clean livin."
I'm whispering "I was lost,"
Now I'm found and forgiven.

When I say..."I am a Christian"
I don't speak of this with pride.
I'm confessing that I stumble
and need CHRIST to be my guide.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not trying to be strong.
I'm professing that I'm weak
and need HIS strength to carry on.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not bragging of success.
I'm admitting I have failed
and need God to clean my mess.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not claiming to be perfect,
My flaws are far too visible
but, God believes I am worth it.

When I say.. "I am a Christian"
I still feel the sting of pain,
I have my share of heartaches
to I call upon His name.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not holier than thou,
I'm just a simple sinner
who received God's good grace, somehow

That's what love is all about isn’t it? Appreciating the little things you do for each other. I am blogging about all these not because I want to brag about my situation or cause people who are out of love to feel worse. My intentions are precisely the opposite of that. I want all of you out there, those attached, to open your eyes to see the little things, appreciate what your partner does for you everyday and not take them for granted, that way, maybe you can see clearer, the love you have for each other. For those out of love, never worry, there WILL be someone out there for everyone of us. There will be a right place and a right time for the right thing to happen.

I thought I would be single and enjoying it for a few more months or years, but it seems like someone up there has other (hopefully better) plans for me. I never expected anything in the romance department to happen so soon...bcz I was absolutely happy w/ my life then....

Yes, I'm in love...

People might say these are the sweet beginnings of a new love. I beg to differ. I really appreciate the feeling of being protected, loved and being treated with such respect and kindness. Best of all, the one thing that completes the whole sweet deal, is, he treats my friends with the utmost respect without trying too hard to impress and forcing meaningless conversations on them. Example, my galpal: C celebrated her birthday on Sat, he decided to go with me even though he didn’t know anyone.

I love the way he loves me. It just feels so.. right. Kindness is something that comes to him naturally I would say.....anyway, enough said...I am just a happy gal.

4th of July....crab and crawfish boiled....yummy....nice place, cool ppl to hang out and splendid swimming pool...........

The only constant thing in life is change. Listening to this song just makes me feel emotional about everything - life, work, friends, childhood, dreams. I have friends who are in their 20s, 30s, approaching 40 and it all seems so fast for them. The years literally fly by. Change is often good I know, but sometimes I just want everything to stay the same.....

Never have I known a human being so kind. So sincere. And so real.
In a world where arrogant, self-absorbed, and opportunistic people litter the streets, there exists a rare and precious gem, carefully hidden amongst all that filth. Untouched, unmarred by the madness of the world.
And as fate destined, the gem found me. Sought me. Claimed me. Only God knows what I have done in this life to deserve such a gift. For the first time in my life, I actually feel undeserving of such love and devotion. Deeply humbled, my heart aches with the sweetness.
I could never be as kind, or as patient, or as understanding. Most importantly, I could never be as selfless. My needs are placed high above all others. My happiness takes precedence. My smiles and laughter, his purpose.
The hours are long, the demands are many, yet everything is instantly and willingly dropped at the snap of my fingers or my cry of pain, as he rushes to soothe and kiss my unhappiness away. Dear dear God, if I can make him even half as happy as he makes me, I’d be eternally grateful. Because I don’t know anybody who deserves it more.
He has a truly beautiful soul and most of all, he loves my LORD with all his heart, soul and mind......THANK YOU FATHER GOD!!!!

Dear Father Lord,

I couldn't really describe how I'm feeling,

words aren't enough to say,

You are my cure and my only healing,

I can't stand to be without being close to You for another day.

The way You show me how You love me,

it does more then just put a smile on my face,

You give me the joy in my heart,

Your blessings amaze me everyday….

Love,

Your daughter

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Dear “You”,

The way you say you love me,

repeats enduringly in my mind,

you are the only one that knows the way to my heart you hold the key,

you are the only one - the type that’s hard to find.

You accepted me for being just me,

you my first pick out of a million and my better choice.

Some people say love is blind but you are all I can see,

you are addicting enough from the very first taste.

Love,

M

In reality.....unlike surfing the NET, I can never hit the "BACK" button...

How true is that? The words 'if only, what if' occasionally pops up in our daily conversations, especially more if we are in the midst of long sighing and grumbling sessions. Let's face it, tomorrow is what we make of today, so we simply have to move on. The only remedy being to make the best out of today.

1 Corinthians 13:4-8

Love is patient and kind; love does not envy or boast; it is not arrogant or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice at wrongdoing, but rejoices with the truth. Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never ends. As for prophecies, they will pass away; as for tongues, they will cease; as for knowledge, it will pass away.

Recently, I've talked to a couple of close friends who've put their relationship with God on hiatus and both when I asked them why they stopped having faith in God, gave me the same answer basically that HE wasn't there when they needed Him the most....

I don't think that they were expecting God to solve their problems, I think what they wanted was some kind of assurance from HIM. I answered them by telling them that just becz they couldn't feel God, doesn't mean He wasn't there...However, I also remember that during my own low period, I found myself thinking the same thing. I felt my faith was tested. And I remembered how I was flipping through the bible trying to find a scripture for me to hold on....then...1 Peter 1:6-7 came....

Wherein ye greatly rejoice, though now for a season, if need be, ye are in heaviness through manifold temptations. That the trial of your faith, being much more precious than of gold that perisheth, though it be tried with fire, might be found unto praise and honour and glory at the appearing of Jesus Christ.

I realized by reading this scripture that standing strong through my trials means knowing who GOD is, and trusting Him to do what He says He will do. I can't become strong in my spirit overnight, and it doesn't happen automatically. It's a lifelong process of growth, and I have to continue to trust HIM and grow in my faith.......

Just to be the person I am
Sometimes I wonder
Can I do it?
I don’t want to wear a mask
Many times I tried not to hurt anybody
I tried to be nice, I tried to help
Tried to be there for each and
Every one of them
Without failure I tried
Even in my busy lifestyle
I still give in my time
Sad to say only
Few people can see it
Only some can feel it
To the rest of them
They just hope for more
Or I would say ask for more
I’m just human
I do have my limits
I realize is not easy
Not easy to please everyone
Sometimes I guess
I just need to be harsh and say No

I used to be really fearful of the things that were yet to happen.
When I was feeling down, I was really down. But nowadays, if I do really get upset, it doesn't feel bad, cause He's holding me. It's a wonderful promise to hold on to. Enough said. Nite and God bless....peeps!

It's been two years

When it ended
Without realizing how much I ached
I tried to let go,
In every way possible,
But I failed miserably.

Then He came in and lifted me up,
And I found everything I needed in Him.
Still I couldn't let Him take it,
Bcz I wanted it so badly,
That I failed to see that it wasn't about what I want
But what He wants.

And so it goes
That a few weeks ago,
I had a special encounter
With the one who deemed most important to me.
He touched me and my soul was filled with joy.

The pain and aches that have been stored up
Left me all of a sudden.
The peace of God felt so real and
Everything else seemed so small.
The joy that fills me now
Can never be explained.

For He has given me
Days of heaven on earth.

And so right now
I give Him my all.
Because letting go
Is giving up what I want,
Surrendering wholly to Him.
Dying to self
And living for Him and Him alone.

All glory to You Lord. He has proven faithful, as always.......

Time doesn’t heal everything, but God does!!!!

I realized something when I’m with him.....and it can be translated to having ideal love is fostered only between two sincere, mature and independent people. It is the inner struggle to polish these attributes that is the key. Real love is not two people clinging to each other; it can only be brought up between two strong people secure in their individuality........

So, everyone, the weekend's here.....eat well, drink well, sleep well, give thanks, pray, work hard, don't forget to play harder, stay healthy, indulge in new hobbies, continue lookin' good, and most importantly, dance crazy (like me)

Peace out honeybees!!!!!

I was listening to my fave radio station in the middle of the rush hr traffic trying to get home from the Galleria area…….

I heard the DJ was asking listeners to ring in and tell him why they love their partners…..this one guy rang in and dedicated a song to his gal….and when he expressed why he loves this gal embedded deep in my memory….he said:

"She has a beautiful spirit and is the kindest soul. I want to protect her with all my heart."

It's interesting because often when people are asked this question, the reason they love their partners are mostly selfish reasons: she makes me feel good, he buys me things, she listens to me and understands me, etc….

We often forget that love isn't just about taking, it's about giving in equal parts... And embracing, good and bad as well.........

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When you asked about my reason? I love you bcz you first love the Lord with all your heart, mind and soul….……

Thank you Lord for giving me someone who loves You….as much as I do.....

It's been a month! It has been slow and steady, which is a drastic change for me. I'm enjoying my lovely, warm, cozy, floaty bubble while I can... without worrying about when it's going to pop...

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I just got tagged by JL, so here we go….

1. Given the chance, what special ability/power would you like to have? The ability to read minds, of course! Pretty kewl……

2. What's your favorite color, why? Purple…and all itz shades…bcz..it’z so princessy….

3. Where is the place you want to go the most? Europe....

4. If you have one dream to come true, what would it be? Huh. What if I'm already living the dream?

5. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain? Absolutely, for me it represents God’s promise to Noah that the world will not be destroyed by another flood….

6. What are you afraid to lose the most now? My composure…

7. If you met someone that you love, would you confess your love to him/her? Prolly so…

8. What part of your body do you like the most? My eyes…?

9. What type of people do you hate the most? What the heck kind of question is this? The type of people I'm not associated with….but HATE is such a strong word….so maybe I should disregard this question....

10. If you have faults, would you rather the people around you point them out? Yes, I am quite open to hear the opinion of others…about me

11. What do you think is the most important thing in your life? In my life? God of course! and my family, sweetie, friends, financial stability……

12. Find a word to describe the person who tagged you. He is a loyal friend….

13. If you had a chance, what would you like to change about yourself? My quick to anger and being impatience…..

14. Is there anything that you have done which you regret? A few things; but I dealt with it and move on!

15. What makes you different? My quirkiness…..and originality… ;)

16. Do you feel good being friends with the person who tagged you? Why? Um, we're friends…. but yes. It's nice to meet new people from different parts of the world.

It's so great to be loved...today, yesterday and every day from here...

May 30, 2008

It's finally Friday!!!!!!!!!!
It's been a really really tough week.
I've been flat out at work and stress/sleep deprivation is taking its toll on me.

My bdae is coming up...I received a surprise text msg from my kewl bro R - from my old job in ATL....thank you for remembering!!!

Another surprise a bouquet of purpley flowers ;)

Celebrating early bdae with friends at Kim Son, then Cafe Express.....the ambiance is unique and the food is memorable.....dining is informal yet sophisticated.

Then continuing to chick flick: Sex in the City....

May 31, 2008

One more day before I am a year old....

It's J Graduation Day....J is Tam's oldest son...friends n fam gathering with BBQ briskets, salad, potato salad, desert and drinks.....

My phone is ringing and ringing...and emails flowing in wishing me a happy bdae....thanx everyone especially all my bros, sis-in-law, niece and neph....love us guys!!!!

And as I ended this month of May, I want to share the Holy Scripture: Philippians 4: 19
And my God will meet all your needs according to his glorious riches in Christ Jesus.

June 1, 2008

It's JUNE and itz my bdae! We are in the middle of 2008 already. Who would've thought that time goes by this quickly.

Church and then Escalante Mex Rest.....with Mojito, Fajitas and Nachos.........

I have an excellent bdae especially someone very dear to me surprises me ;)

On a random note:



I like this I and the Village, 1911 - oil on canvas painting by Marc Chagall

China Earthquake....the latest official figures are more than 65,000 people dead.


Memorial Day weekend.....

Honoring those who died for our freedom.....



I am preparing for the get-away....

La prochaine fois, peut-etre elle decidera de rester un peu plus longtemps.....

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NOV 2008...changes will be happened...another turning point in my life...GOD is wonderful, He is awesome....everything works out for the best!!! For His glory and purpose

everybody needs to belong somewhere

life can feel so alone without someone who cares

and when life becomes something just to get through

that's when i'm glad that i belong to you

i belong to you i belong to you

you're the one who will never let me down

won't let me down

i belong to you

sometimes life brings more pain than we can bear alone

when hope is gone and i have no strength to stand on my own

when nothing helps there's nothing that i can do

you surround me and show me i belong to you

when love is gone, there's no arms to run to anymore

i'm all alone there's no one for me to live

for letting go of the things i've always clung to

that's when i need to feel that i belong to you

you are the one Lord!!!!

Monday will be the day!...
I will find out a bit more about my future assignment......

Last week, we had all department meeting for our discipline....yeah big stuff...what a pleasant surprised when the Function MGR...called me out in the middle of the meeting providing me with a recognition and award for my "excellent" performance in data collecting for 6sigma...I didn't expect it...it was soo nice...and he was sure to say it out loud that he would do anything to keep ppl in his group....I turned around and looked at my boss and he looked at me...I knew it would be difficult for me to leave the department now going to a different one with my boss...but there is nothing impossible in the hands of GOD!!!



The big meeting was over...I went back to my desk, sat down and opened the envelope and another pleasant surprise....I was given MONETARY award quite substantial amount....I started emailing the Function MGR thanking him for his kind reward...thanking the LORD, praising HIM along the way....I felt so blessed by HIS grace....

When I was first called to do this data collecting 6sigma stuff, I was so afraid bcz my background in 6sigma ain't much...but I have HIM...I prayed and stood firm in HIS promise...and look where HE took me...I won't take any of the credit...it is all of HIM none of me....how could anyone doubt the power of HIS mighty hands and HIS LOVE???

HE has given me a new song to sing, a hymn of praise to our GOD. Many will see what HE has done and be astounded. They will put their trust in the LORD.

Psalm 40:3

I know whatever the outcome...it is HIS will, I will obey for HE is my father who loves me.... :))

This week is a busy week….my boss is in Montreal….

Lebanese civil war

Estimates of the death tool from Cyclone Nargis in Myanmar soared past 100,000 and the junta is taking the aids intended for victims.....

:( :( :(

Sunday is Mother’s Day…and VN-Gal is super sweet, she invited me to join her fam for Mother’s Day…what she wrote really touching…she said she knew the Mother’s Day celebration won’t replace the fact that my mother is no longer here…but she wanted me to celebrate it with her fam……super sweet…..

ENGAGEMENT DAY!!!!

BUSY preparation last night...........today is all about family, good friends and food..........

Speaking of friends...I am so blessed w/ real friends...where we always there for each other......even when we are busy w/ our own schedule.....

BUT some friends are not so real...take an example of this gal where I used to work in ATL.....we were really close then........we went out to lunch almost daily, she was one gal that I trusted....then when I moved away....I had made several attempts to keep in touch...writing emails.....etc...but she on the other hand...never made these attempts..........I had to be the one....so I just quit contacting her....period...oh well...whatever...you gain a friend you lose one :)

Good riddance for all those fakeys....ha..ha

God is amazing...so amazing....when I first heard the news about Aussie opportunity in Darwin....I started to do my research and found out that Darwin is rather a small town....

I was then uneasy bcz after all I am a city gal...loveeeee the crowds....the big Malls..etc...LOL!!!

And of course I started praying...my bros, sis-in-law and kiddos, they too started praying for me.....

This morning...ehmmmmmmmmm found out that I will be located in the Brisbane not Darwin...Brisbane is the 3rd largest city in Australia after Sydney and Melbourne....WOW...what'z up w/ the sudden change.....



Then my boss started talking about the time frame for this new assignment ...surprisingly...LORD...oh LORD....it is such a perfect timing towards the end of my APT lease here.........another WOW!!!

My boss then asked to write the PROs and CONs about this new opportunity...so I decided to do so..........

Pros:
> Exciting opportunity
> I work very well with my boss (a wonderful, respectable man)
> Exciting place
> Closer to fam, NIECE and NEPHEW (definitely :) !!!
> Relocation Package will include traveling back to the U.S.A
> I am paid perdiem, etc...more DINERO definitely!

Cons:
> Not Houston :(
> New places, new environment, new job descriptions, new friends
> Culture shock like my past working experience in Singapore
> Leaving the current Industry to an Industry (I am not so familiar with)
> Moving - AGAIN???? ha..ha

Time to get on my knees...and look up to HIM for an answer....
Lord - You have blessed me tremendously.....

Lord,
If it is Your will, I will obey.......

Things are turning upside down this week....

It started getting into accident w/ VN-Gal....bcz of this careless pedestrian decided to cross over last minute...the Taxi in front of the VN-Gal's car had to slam on its brake and VN-Gal had to slam on hers but it was too late....$1800 worth of damage....geez!!!!

Then my boss came back today and he gave me a shocking news...he might be promoted to a different division and moving to Darwin. He would be the super top guy for the whole division. And he told me that he already requested that I would be transferring with him and hope that I would accept the assignment.....OMG...is this means that I would move to Darwin???????


I have no answer at this time....but I know fo'sure I am going to my little corner and seeking HIS guidance...HE would not fail or forsake me...His love endureth forever..... :)

All my bros, sis-in-law, niece n' nephew....of course are excited....Darwin - Sydney journey is now in their mind....

I trust the LORD!!!

All of us have been brainstorming trying to figure out where we all should meet for our annual Christmas and New Year get together this year. At first, we were discussing about meeting up here but then Dubai came up, then Jakarta....but it seems that everything is now unsure....bcz my oldest bro just purchased a very kewl-lux house in Sydney...we all are excited for him and wanted to come over there to enjoy his new home...

Sydney? Oh YESSSSSS!!! I love that city!!!!!

:) :)

Here is the pics of the house my sista-in-law sent using the real estate website....

Beautiful ain't it????