Ma 2009 Life....

January

New Year in Sydney - stopped over Singapore to visit my uncles & fam, and my brother.... I missed the flight SQ - Singapore - Houston via Moscow...what a dork! Ended up paying SGD200.00 to get to the next day flight...I was sooo glad to have a spot available...I was willing to pay any amt...

I wouldn't know that was the last time I would see my uncle.....

Took up a new hobby: learnin' to shoot a "real" gun :))...

February

My "group" got smaller - workload got bigger...busy busy busy

Still shootin' 9 mm gun...

March

A lot of bdaes - My niece, my bro, J.P, VB, MG, MPG.... Still shootin'...

April

Audit in Baton Rouge - what a mess....!

House sitting for a dear friend - Mischa was a lot of fun!

May

Found out that my work location would not be in Hou anymore....

June

I was one year older - a clean slate - moved to that new work location!

My bro got a new house sooo I would be moving to the TH...a place in Houston I would call "home"...

July

Cleaned - cleaned - cleaned took away 26 yrs of junkies from the TH....yuckies!

Back n forth "THAT PLACE" n Houston on the weekend...getting adjusted...

Audit in Tulsa, OK - stayed over at my cousin's place - enjoyed the little kiddos...

bro's bdae.... :)

August, September, October

My Tulsa Cousin n fam came to Houston in Aug- but the youngest kiddo got really sick :(

The other bro's bdae...learned that he's "involved" - cute :) finally!

My life was at a halt....everything is all about the renovation of the TH....stressed out beyond control....sooo much money, time, etc...I was in the brink of going insane..LOL!!

September - moved frm the apt to the TH - TH was 89% or so completed....aaaaarghhhh!!!!! October - ma' nephew's bdae...

November

A blessing n a sad month.... God's blessing came to me - ma' ATL buddy: Flying Drummer - came to the rescue...he fixed EVERYTHING - I meant EVERYTHING n built a brand new deck for the back patio for me!!!! He did ALL sooo professionally - unbelievably - as a GIFT! Praise the LORD!!!

But in the midst of everything a bad news came from my bro in Singapore regarding my Uncle's accident....he was hospitalized fighting for his life....

A visitor from overseas came n I really enjoyed being able to show that person around....

About 3 weeks after his fall - my uncle passed on - on the eve of Thanksgiving.... :(

A different type of Thanksgiving Day – lots of praising n thankfulness in the midst of grieving…

December

A short month for work....2 weeks audit in Houston...

I had to cancel my JKT trip to be w my bro n fam - my sis-in-law parents' 50th wedding celebration.... :(

Christmas Eve - left for A****n...'til the 26th - I had a great time :))

New Year in a freezing-snowy-city....perhaps I will be seeing the rare "Blue Moon"...

My New Year's Resolutions:

*Keep my focus to what or who is most important: HIM - JC!

*Back to serve in a Ministry

*Get a better grip on my totally random anger issue

*I leave this one unwritten - as the Lord to know the desire of my heart ;)

*Continue to exercise n eat healthy

*Travel to ***** God willing

*Buy a gun

*Play more piano

*Bless others as I have been blessed :))

Random stuff 2009:

"Climategate"

Jesse Ventura on Tru TV

Ron Paul

Lamentations 3:22-24

The unfailing love of the LORD never ends! By his mercies we have been kept from complete destruction. Great is his faithfulness; his mercies begin afresh each day. I say to myself, "The LORD is my inheritance; therefore, I will hope in him!"

saw this online - wow super cute - party furrrfect for 2010

Spike Egg-Nog - Kahlua n Canon in D

I took the challenge to master Johann Pachelbel's Canon in D on the piano....so my Christmas is consumed by cold weather - n practice, practice, practice....

I learnt how to read, write music, and play the piano at the early age - I was actually enrolled in Yamaha School of music...however, today - I am a bit rusty in reading the notes....

It'z getting there - Pachelbel - I will get the piece right! Below is pg 1 of 2:

The Toughest Christmas - VOID

I could not find a valid reason to be unhappy with my current lifestyle and situation......It'z kinda weird bcz to begin with, I am a fairly contented person. I count my blessings. I rejoice in the simplicity of life. Sipping coffee. Smelling the rain. Feeling the wind. Enjoying the crisp weather. Writing. Reading. Praying. Walking/jogging at T.H. park. Enjoying my newly renovated TH. Yet, I am consumed by this unexplainable void in my life. A huge empty space waiting to be filled. But with what? Maybe, I should learn not to entertain my emotions too much....just knowing The Joy of the Lord is My Strength.....

Went w/ ma' dearie to the Festival of Carols
Featuring: Cynthia Clawson

with: Tallowood Adult Choir and Orchestra

Jubilation Bell Choir

It was soooo great....Christmas is definitely here............

Father God...I love You....

Dear Hunney,

Nothing touch my heart more than having you kneel down with me daily to pray....n on your quiet moment w/ Father GOD each day...I heard my name is mentioned in your prayer...........A GOD feared man - is more precious than GOLD n SILVER....n gold n silver are reaaaaaaaaaaally expensive now-a-dayz...since the value of USD is sinking low...so u r more precious than all those :) Thank you for having such high endurance, for being there, for all the lunch meals you've never failed to make every weekend, for being so understanding, and for always not giving up when the going gets tough. I know I am sometimes hard to handle, but you know I really cherish every bit of effort you've put in to compromise and deal with me. Whaddaya know, we aren't so bad after all. :)N most of all - with autumn already in full swing - thank you sooh much for watching my fave cartoon (repeatedly on the yearly basis): It's the Great Pumpkin, Charlie Brown , w/ me tirelessly - can't wait for the next Fall to watch it again w/ you.... ;)
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"Chill" has been my favourite word all these while BUT, it has been particularly HOTTER these days. I use this word almost everyday now. On Wed when work was pretty tough...I told myself to chill....yesterday after work arriving back in H-town for the weekend I decided to chill, right now n tmorw......I feel like chillaxin' doin' nuthin'...darn...am I becoming a boring person or what?..HEEEELPP....LOL!!
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To G, I learnt this week that to err or have erred is only human. But sometimes when you make mistakes, you can never turn back again. Even if you tried hard enough, they'd never be the same again. Scary innit? Sigh...welcome to reality........

Lately, dunno why but almost everyday...I have been receiving news that pains the heart..........

I can to the extreme feel how they felt.............

To dear CSP who just lost her dad last Friday....I'm really, really sorry to hear.....my thoughts n prayers r w you n fam.....your dad was a fighter...he has been fighting really hard all these while....I know he is in good hands now....may he rest in peace....

I want to share 2 Timothy 4:7 - when I thought about your dad.....

I have fought a good fight, I have finished my course, I have kept the faith

to Hun's mom

to VNGal's dad....

to KL's dad....

to my neighbor's husband,

to my uncle....

to LH's grandma,
to my neighbour's husband
I'm praying for a speedy recovery....and hope they fight with all their might

I would love to see them get well :)

Things that are reallieeeeeeeee starting to tick me off big time:
1. Last minute decisions....

2. Telling me things only at the last possible second........

3. Unthoughtfulness - Having me to point things out to your face before you actualli get the big picture....


LOL..but I know, I know Babe - you put up w/ my crazieeeeeeness a whole lotz as well...it'z a part of life and growing together.....


WE made it! Congratulations to us both!!! Muaks....XOXOXO

Never Give Up...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OSRj7JqURjc&feature=related

It has certainly made me see,
that things change, circumstances change, people change.
I am not the person I once visualized myself to be,

But that surely doesn't make me any less happy,

It doesn't mean I have achieved less but merely means that I've achieved something different.

Life as is now definitely means responsibilities,

and difficult choices and decisions.
Decisions that involve sacrifices, that sometimes,
I am too afraid to make.

As for me, I am going to keep seeking
Until I find God's plan for me...
So long I don't give up, I'll get find it one day.
It may not be today,
But I will find it one day...

When everything has come to an end, the daily routines awaits you. I am losing and loving at the same time. Life's full of contradictions.........so does my heart........

Standing strong.........

I know that I'm being prepared for something new....

With you - I will never be alone............

Just like I thought..............

Everything that happen has it's own cause.

Every choice that is made has it's reason behind it.

And for every obstacle I face, its either I got to learn to accept or learn to lose.

And for that, I will learn to accept because it is worth everything for....

Overall - I don't have to change a bit, just to be myself.......

Facing the world again w/ a big fat smile....

If you dwell on the past and worry about the future, then you will struggle with the present

I've so much to say and so much to tell. Yet, I can't seem to string up everything in perfect sentences, let alone paragraphs to describe everything.

Life has been, pretty hard.....Nevertheless, I'm trying my best to keep the spirits up. It's a misunderstanding and it's impossible for me to clarify it.

Though it's kind of sad that I've yet to hang out w/ old friends as we're all too busy with our own lives. I'm keeping my hopes up, hopefully being back in Houston for the weekend would do me some good.

Work? If it wasn't for the awesome ppl I worked with....I'd probably die out of my lack of enthusiasm to do anything. Alright - I got to stop whinning........

When turmoil happens, one should always remain a temperate response & collected. It annoys me when people switch sides so easily. They're so easily influence by other's or so much so they just get confused. No stand or opinion of their own at all. How could they grow then? They would not be able to learn to see things from different perspectives....and aspects....

Gossiping about someone who secretly helped you before without you even knowing - is totally unkewl... Sigh! I don't know how to let out my frustration ....Bah!

Thanks for those who stood beside me with the long night phone calls...............

What to do what to do what to do?

I'm tangled up with issues that I perceived as endless.

But, come to think about my issue, it isn't as bad as like world crisis or sad natural disasters...........So yea, I tried not brooding too much over it.

Another thing to lift up mood a little, always have the mindset that 'I'm not alone or facing problems alone'.

Just don't keep thinking that why is it me, why am I getting it instead of some other people.

Coz' the fact is, I am not the only one who are experiencing the same kind of situation. Might not be exactly the same.......but pretty much similar.........Special thanks to Liz-ma sis, Jen, sister J, S, M, L, R for being there for me.......u guyz r God sent!"

He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds."Psalm 147:3

Leave Out All The Rest....

I'm strong on the surface

Not all the way through

I've never been perfect

But neither have you.........

whenever i get this way,

i just don't know what to say

why can't things like they used to be....

i'm not sure what this could mean

i do admit to myself that i've hurt u....

we'd never see just what were meant to be

every time i see us falling

i get down on my knees and pray

i'm waiting for that final moment

u'll say the words that i can't say..........

A couple of weeks ago – as I was walking to “a place” – I accidentally saw this crumpled up bill on the floor…I looked around and didn’t see anyone at all so I couldn’t guess who might have drop it….I went ahead and picked it up, uncrumpled it an…to my surprise – it was twenty bucks!..WOW I have never found anything more than a $5 before WOW!

My first thought took me back a few yrs back…I’m a gal who’ve alwayz been one of those believing in one comes around goes around kinda person…

(I guess that’s becz how I was brought up….I remember one of the usual Christmas vacation I spent in "THAT PLACE", my oldest bro was sitting on the dining table w/ my late-mom….and we were just chatting…’bout everythg n anythg…my bro at that time was about to marry my now-kewl-sis-in-law :)…in a few months.

Anywaz making the writing short…bro was telling me all these ppl who embezzled/stole huge amt of money…will not be blessed…God is a forgiving father…but evertg has its consequences as well….he reminded me that the best way is to live an honest life…)

I digressed let me go back – anyway my first thought came to me about that day after my loooong night at work (I had to stay late putting together the handover package for a project)…It was raining hard, I was so tired and just couldn’t wait to go home…however, I didn’t have much lunch and skipped dinner…and the time was almost midnight…I decided to make a quick stop in Randall’s to grab smtg really simple n light….as I paid my purchase w/ my ATM card I decided to take out $10 cash for my lunch tomorrow….when the cashier handed it to me I didn’t even check…partly bcz I was too tired…partly bcz she was yaking too much telling me that she had a sick daughter that she didn’t like to leave her at home at night w/ her aunt…but she had not much choice since she had to make a living…etc…and she couldn’t afford losing her job of smtg of such. I got to my car drove home, and just about when I almost about 1 miles away from home – I was caught in a red light so I decided to move the money from inside my purse to my wallet..when I realized that she had given me a $20 instead of a $10 …of course my first instinct was telling me who give a D*MN…geez I was super tired after all – just drove home and kept it…..but then I remembered what she was telling me about losing her job etc…and I know fo’sure cashiers at a grocery stores WILL be let go if money comes up short. So quite grudgingly I turned around, drove 5 miles back to Randall’s, got out of my car, walked straight to THAT cashier and told her hey you gave me a twenty instead of a ten. But to my surprise, instead of showing her gratitude, she nonchalantly just said okay and grabbed the money frm my hand. I was fuming walking out back to my car….but then…smtg inside me told me that I’ve done the right thing…receiving thanks was not important…but passing the test of patience was way more important. I felt ALL my anger just went away right away…went home w/ a light heart.

So yeah back to the twenty I found crumpled up on the ground….I took it…and since there isn’t anyone around that might’ve dropped the money……I then didn’t feel bad….or wrong ‘bout putting it in my pocket LOL!

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My bestie who recently moved to Europe called me n asked me…how my Summer is so far…..well this is how I describe it…itz been: Crazy hectic, eventful, and almost coming to an end. It's funny and bittersweet – all this I can describe about the renov of my TH……..

So much to be done....
I am very tired....Sigh.....

Stress stress stress. So little time. So little time.

I can't breathe. I need a break.

Where is my pillar of strength?

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Psalm 121: 1 - 2: A Song of Ascents....
I lift up my eyes to the hills—
Where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord,
The Maker of heaven and earth.................

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Let me breathe.............

I've been dreamin' of renovation completion n back to my somewhat "NORMAL" life........

Speaking of holidays, I am going to meet the family again in December :) - sometg wonderful to look forward to....in months away...


What hits me the most lately is the subject of "PERFECTION".....ya know....as a perfectionist, it’s super hard for me to swallow & accept life's imperfections, others’ imperfections..and especially mine! One thing I’ve sure learned throughout the years is that no matter how hard I try, I: Call-Me-Miz-M , have absolutely no control of how people think, feel or behave towards me...I simply need to accept some people just the way they are…learning to forgive, to let go, not holding any grudges and most importantly, to move on!...Cuz' you can't change or mold people the way you want them to be! (not without risking being a doormat, a people pleaser..or worst, losing your self-worth & unique identity!)...As one Guinea-Bissau proverb says: "Leave a log in the water as long as you like: It will never be a crocodile"

NEVERTHELESS, I sure have complete control over how I think, feel and behave towards others - and I think that’s what matters the most in living a peaceful, positive & productive life in God's beautiful grace...

Dear God,

I pray that you will give me the honesty I need to look inside myself and discover what is really there, and also to see how my actions affect other people…

May I rid myself of pride that stands in the way of love. May I know not just the joy of love but the responsibilities that come with loving and being loved…

Amen...
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Happenings…..so lots happened since “then”...and last week was a whole lot of shit & sabotages. But I know after this weekend, it's all gonna be good bcz my intentions are good. And that's all that matters no matter what people try to put in ur space. They may be able to get away with it now, but I believe the truth will prevail at the end of the day.

Renovating a place - is exhausting & an emotional process is like having a 2nd job...

Ya know ppl alwyz talk 'bout the things they hate 'bout work...maybe it'z the boss....perhaps they pay izn't good enough, maybe the woking hrs is ridiculous, maybe there is no meaning to what they do...the list is endless.......... BUT...there'z always a reason why they're still there eventhough they hate it....

My reason is simple...bcz it pays the bills during this time of hardship...itz scarie out there...unemployment hits 2 digits...first time in the history...and it hits home...when your buddies are being laid off...and losing their work.....

I am praying for them....in the name of JC....

Yepper....I've learned that life is not about the tangible materials in life. There is so much more...all the fun discoveries of places, people, knowledge and culture. How our presence on earth is meant for another. Life is an ongoing process of finding our path to self-actualization which I am currently enjoying the wild and rocky ride.

I have a loving FATHER in heaven who I can always rely on and a solid comfort provider, a great fam-n-friends who support all my endeavors, loving dearie who gives me everything I need and desires.....yeah...I may not be mega-rich, extremely beautiful, extremely thin or live a decadent lifestyle. But I can sincerely and appreciative say this.. I'm blessed :)))))

The Ex-Files

What do you with the stuff from your former love-of-ur-life? LOL....Burn it all? Shove it all in the deepest, darkest corner of your closet? Put it in a bin in your garage? Dump it all in your local garbage bin? Leave everything as is? What do you do?

I know this one gal...who keeps a shoebox worth of each ot her exes' for memory....I know someone else (a dude) who gets rid of everything entirely, unless it was something practical (like digital photos n exes' love emails), printed out photos,cards, gifts, etc, gets thrown out.

What would be considered "healthy"? Healthy for you emotionally and for your future, that is.

For me I do understand the importance of remembering the good times...but sometimes I do really wonder if it should all just be left a memory...so one can starts anew.

How else can you really give your heart to someone who is really meant to have it? I was cleaning out the TH prior to ther renovation and inevitably ran into some old pictures/letters/cards/etc from the one of my past. I'm with someone new now, of which, I completely adore. Since I have no use for this old stuff. I wanted to throw it away... but there was a moment when my heart didn't want me to....weird huh???? WHY? I have this pang of memories running through my head then it just kinda evolved into closure...isn't it kinda weird...reading old cards made me feel a sense of closure?

Okay. Sure. I gathered what I could and placed it in an old shoebox. It's weird though because I don't wanna keep it, but at the same time, I'm hesitant to throw it away. I kinda wanna tape it up, and let it sail across the sea (or something ridiculous like that). Just let the good times float around I guess. I figure when I have to re-sort things back to the TH when it is all completed...I will end up for sure to throw it away..............one thing's for sure. I feel the sense of closure about the things that happened..........some time ago :))))

Dun hv much 2 say since I pretty much hv abandoned this blog for FB.....

To...LPG - I'm NEVER a huge fan of sugar-coated words. Don't waste ur time...

I'm finding happy-in-my-ness, and that is the whole beauty... ;)

Time is moving fast...it'z been one whole month since I moved to that 2 hr-from-Hou town.......
I am doing well...relying on HIM more than before.........
I thank Him everyday for all His mercy and blessings.....
All the wisdom....He provides me....
I m officially the owner of my bro's townhome...a lot of renovating to do........but I know if I stay focus on Him, my goals will be accomplish according to HIS purpose in my life........I am not afraid and I won't be moved..........with HIM all things are possible.........
Thank you LORD....

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE …enough money within her control to move out and rent a place of her own, even if she never wants to or needs to…

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE .something perfect to wear if the employer, or date of her dreams wants to see her in an hour…

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE...a youth she’s content to leave behind….

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ....a past juicy enough that she’s looking forward toretelling it in her old age….

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ….a set of screwdrivers, a cordless drill, and a black lace bra…

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE....one friend who always makes her laugh… and one who lets her cry…

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ..a good piece of furniture not previously owned by anyone else in her family…

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE .....eight matching plates, wine glasses with stems, and a recipe for a meal, that will make her guests feel honored…

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE .....a feeling of control over her destiny.

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW…how to fall in love without losing herself.

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW…how to quit a job, break up with a lover, and confront a friend without; ruining the friendship…

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW…when to try harder… and WHEN TO WALK AWAY…

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW…that she can’t change the length of her calves, the width of her hips, or the nature of her parents..

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW…that her childhood may not have been perfect…but its over…

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW…what she would and wouldn’t do for love or more…

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW…how to live alone… even if she doesn’t like it…

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW..whom she can trust,whom she can’t,and why she shouldn’t take it personally…

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW…where to go…be it to her best friend’s kitchen table…or a acharming inn in the woods…when her soul needs soothing…

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW…what she can and can’t accomplish in a day…a month…and a year…

Pamela Redmond Satran

Somewhat packed - reporting to work in June 1, 2009 - same day of my bday to what my kewl-bro-R called it: the armpit of the oil world.....

Wrote an email to an old friend... :)

My job required me to move (again)....leaving to the new destination end of May 2009...

Will it means end of my blogging days...? I'm mostly on my FB instead...

Been house, teenager and dog sitting for the past week for my close friend...she is in Europe...I am enjoying my job/walk daily with her Doberman Pinschers...Mischa ---- she is a doll...a super energetic, alert, smart, and watchful dog. This Dobe..is basically walking me instead of me walking her...she is strong and pull me to walk...and will make sure I don't get lost....how kewl is that????

Been busy workin' - went audit - it went fairly well - I guess....

Been facebook-in' - it'z addictive

Been exercisin' - I'm happy that I've put a lot of commitments to do it regularly

Been gettin' ready to move to the field....geez...June '09 is comin' waaaaaaay too soon

Been missin' my niece and neph....

Been thinkin' about how thankful I'm to all of HIS bountiful blessings....

Been smilin' thinking about "our anniversarry" is comin' up..... :)

Easter is comin' up...each year it reminds me of how J.C's willingness to die for my sins.............

I have nothing to write here :(

Went to my friend's studio to play piano...itz been a while but I love it....playing piano calms me tremendously...

To answer - VIV questions about the top 5:

For me...

Same belief - who loves J.C
Laid back n the one who could take my crap (n my anger problm at times..LOL)
Yeah no whine-y person - I m the only one who is allow to whine...
Someone who spoils me
Someone who is kind hearted...to others...and genuine...can't stand egotistical fakes...

:))))

There u got my answer VIV...letz tag VN Gal...answer us VN Gal...

Broken Cellph - n anger management?

I broke my cellph...I have had that ph since 2005 and it has followed me everywhere around the world....don't ask me plz how I broke it - I m jest gonna come out n say it: it has to do w me getting really, really, really pissed off, I took all my emotion/anger at the poor little ph...I threw it (in the carpet) soooo hard that it is literally broke into two...I took the SIM card out and realized all the 200 ph numbers I got was actually saved on the phone not on the SIM...the reason why is becz when traveling, I often would purchase the country "on the go-SIM" and use the local number (cheaper than the $2.99/min Cing or ATT charges). If I saved on my SIM then I would not be able to obtain those numbers and if I saved on both then they would appear twice on my phonebook....

What to do w all the numbers stored inside the broken ph. not to mention all the sweet text msgs I saved of my hun and pix I took during my travels..........my patience ever-loving hun actually taped it together for me and it works...ppl...my phone has gone through some MAJOR operation...LMAO...

Then the sweet VN - Gal...n BFF V-Boo actually offered me their old phones...thank yawl for handling the crisis situation of no-cell-ph-available = craziness....

Moral of the story...if you get angry threw something on the floor that isn't breakable LMAO.....

Been away - too wrap up on Facebook....so much fun...I found old friends...we are too busy pokin' each others and writin' on the wall LMAO!!!!

What've I been doing w my "lil' bit of spare time" now....reading and more reading...especially the weather has been so permitting...it'z been so gloomy and drizzled here and there.........

HeArt bReAK!!!!

"We just drifted apart" = typical excuse for breakups nowadays....we often (including moi - in the past) use.

But now I realized....geez...how lame......never follow ur heart coz its an emotional roller coaster....instead strive to lead ur heart! If two ppl wants to stay together....they can/will work through anything.....no wonder most of us, our parents stay married 'til death do 'em apart..........those folks have my respect!!!!!!!!!

Sweet Recollection
Meeting up with friends of a decade old never fails to bring back good old memory, but at the very same time, awakening us to the melancholic truth that the past simplicity in life is never to be owned again.
those were the days when we life was much simpler.
there are so many strings of events running through my mind. happy ones, depressing ones, hilarious ones… i can never finish getting them all out in words.
time can never be reverse, and memories are what we are left with.
bittersweet indeed.

One step at a time
One hope then another
Who knows where this road may go?
Back to who I was
On to find my future things my heart still needs to know
Yes, let this be a sign
Let this road be mine
Let it lead me to my past
courage see me through heart
I am trusting YOU to bring me home At last!

I detest the mediocre element of life yet contradictorily embrace the simplicity of it.
Prolly the line is too thin thus they smudged to a confusing grey now.

Be Brave
even if u arent,
just pretend.

Sometimes you have to forget what you feel and
remember what you deserve.

JEANS WEEK all next week.... :)))) YEAYYYYYYYYYY!!!

I am hooked on Lulu Guinness fragrance.....

Mistakes I have made and they might come back to haunt me someday in the future. But I don't owe anyone an explanation. Nor am I inclined to provide gossip for other people. It's really difficult to trust anyone these days....but I know I can always put my trust in HIM and HIM ONLY....

Somewhere I have never traveled, gladly beyond any experience, your eyes have their silence: in your most frail gesture are things which enclose me, or which I cannot touch because they are too near your slightest look will easily unclose me though I have closed myself as fingers, you open always petal by petal myself as Spring opens (touching skilfully, mysteriously) her first rose or if your wish be to close me, I and my life will shut very beautifully, suddenly, as when the heart of this flower imagines the snow carefully everywhere descending; nothing which we are to perceive in this world equals the power of your intense fragility: whose texture compels me with the color of its countries,rendering death and forever with each breathing (I do not know what it is about you that closes and opens; only something in me understands the voice of your eyes is deeper than all roses) nobody, not even the rain, has such small hands - E. E. Cummings

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Went to Tam's house on Fri, she just moved to a 4 yr old house...we hang out...over grill chicken and a bottle of merlot...and watch girly movie: Because I said so...

OMG..OMG...I found a perrrrrfect Merlot wine....by accident....I was looking for Lindemans but come across the California wine...our own...wow....I decided to try it....

I noticed...a rich, medium Ruby Red color in this Merlot, with aromas of black cherry, cassis, red licorice, plum and a hint of sage, balanced with notes from the oak aging, including vanilla, toffee and toasty oak.... I took a sip and it's easy to drink. Surprisingly rich flavors of cherry, vanilla and mocha combine with toasty oak. Highly recommended ;)))))

ECONOMIC concerns may have dampened the mood, but people marked the Year of the OX by continuing to celebrate the Lunar New Year - with prayer, ritual, tradition, and festivities.....

For those who celebrate the New Year...wish you guys a prosperous one!

I love the church near my home...every week it puts out a message - very catchy for passerby....

The world financial crisis has made me realized I need a New Year resolution to bring my lunch everyday to work. No more eating out for lunch. It was all inspired by my bro and my sis-in-law. My bro holds a high position in Sydney and my sis-in-law is a corporate lawyer and they own a beautiful, expensive house, yet – they bring their lunch to work. They don’t spend crazy amount of money for eating out….

Today marked the 3rd day of my bringing my lunch from home…..

I also had started my almost daily jogging back……….along w/ eating light meals….I lost my jogging partner – as she moved to Penn State but…jogging alone gives me time to myself to reflect and praise HIM……….

I am still very much in love w/ HIM…He is a wonderful Lord!