Ma 2009 Life....

January

New Year in Sydney - stopped over Singapore to visit my uncles & fam, and my brother.... I missed the flight SQ - Singapore - Houston via Moscow...what a dork! Ended up paying SGD200.00 to get to the next day flight...I was sooo glad to have a spot available...I was willing to pay any amt...

I wouldn't know that was the last time I would see my uncle.....

Took up a new hobby: learnin' to shoot a "real" gun :))...

February

My "group" got smaller - workload got bigger...busy busy busy

Still shootin' 9 mm gun...

March

A lot of bdaes - My niece, my bro, J.P, VB, MG, MPG.... Still shootin'...

April

Audit in Baton Rouge - what a mess....!

House sitting for a dear friend - Mischa was a lot of fun!

May

Found out that my work location would not be in Hou anymore....

June

I was one year older - a clean slate - moved to that new work location!

My bro got a new house sooo I would be moving to the TH...a place in Houston I would call "home"...

July

Cleaned - cleaned - cleaned took away 26 yrs of junkies from the TH....yuckies!

Back n forth "THAT PLACE" n Houston on the weekend...getting adjusted...

Audit in Tulsa, OK - stayed over at my cousin's place - enjoyed the little kiddos...

bro's bdae.... :)

August, September, October

My Tulsa Cousin n fam came to Houston in Aug- but the youngest kiddo got really sick :(

The other bro's bdae...learned that he's "involved" - cute :) finally!

My life was at a halt....everything is all about the renovation of the TH....stressed out beyond control....sooo much money, time, etc...I was in the brink of going insane..LOL!!

September - moved frm the apt to the TH - TH was 89% or so completed....aaaaarghhhh!!!!! October - ma' nephew's bdae...

November

A blessing n a sad month.... God's blessing came to me - ma' ATL buddy: Flying Drummer - came to the rescue...he fixed EVERYTHING - I meant EVERYTHING n built a brand new deck for the back patio for me!!!! He did ALL sooo professionally - unbelievably - as a GIFT! Praise the LORD!!!

But in the midst of everything a bad news came from my bro in Singapore regarding my Uncle's accident....he was hospitalized fighting for his life....

A visitor from overseas came n I really enjoyed being able to show that person around....

About 3 weeks after his fall - my uncle passed on - on the eve of Thanksgiving.... :(

A different type of Thanksgiving Day – lots of praising n thankfulness in the midst of grieving…

December

A short month for work....2 weeks audit in Houston...

I had to cancel my JKT trip to be w my bro n fam - my sis-in-law parents' 50th wedding celebration.... :(

Christmas Eve - left for A****n...'til the 26th - I had a great time :))

New Year in a freezing-snowy-city....perhaps I will be seeing the rare "Blue Moon"...

My New Year's Resolutions:

*Keep my focus to what or who is most important: HIM - JC!

*Back to serve in a Ministry

*Get a better grip on my totally random anger issue

*I leave this one unwritten - as the Lord to know the desire of my heart ;)

*Continue to exercise n eat healthy

*Travel to ***** God willing

*Buy a gun

*Play more piano

*Bless others as I have been blessed :))

Random stuff 2009:

"Climategate"

Jesse Ventura on Tru TV

Ron Paul

Lamentations 3:22-24

The unfailing love of the LORD never ends! By his mercies we have been kept from complete destruction. Great is his faithfulness; his mercies begin afresh each day. I say to myself, "The LORD is my inheritance; therefore, I will hope in him!"

saw this online - wow super cute - party furrrfect for 2010

Spike Egg-Nog - Kahlua n Canon in D

I took the challenge to master Johann Pachelbel's Canon in D on the piano....so my Christmas is consumed by cold weather - n practice, practice, practice....

I learnt how to read, write music, and play the piano at the early age - I was actually enrolled in Yamaha School of music...however, today - I am a bit rusty in reading the notes....

It'z getting there - Pachelbel - I will get the piece right! Below is pg 1 of 2:

The Toughest Christmas - VOID

I could not find a valid reason to be unhappy with my current lifestyle and situation......It'z kinda weird bcz to begin with, I am a fairly contented person. I count my blessings. I rejoice in the simplicity of life. Sipping coffee. Smelling the rain. Feeling the wind. Enjoying the crisp weather. Writing. Reading. Praying. Walking/jogging at T.H. park. Enjoying my newly renovated TH. Yet, I am consumed by this unexplainable void in my life. A huge empty space waiting to be filled. But with what? Maybe, I should learn not to entertain my emotions too much....just knowing The Joy of the Lord is My Strength.....

Went w/ ma' dearie to the Festival of Carols
Featuring: Cynthia Clawson

with: Tallowood Adult Choir and Orchestra

Jubilation Bell Choir

It was soooo great....Christmas is definitely here............

Father God...I love You....

Dear Hunney,

Nothing touch my heart more than having you kneel down with me daily to pray....n on your quiet moment w/ Father GOD each day...I heard my name is mentioned in your prayer...........A GOD feared man - is more precious than GOLD n SILVER....n gold n silver are reaaaaaaaaaaally expensive now-a-dayz...since the value of USD is sinking low...so u r more precious than all those :) Thank you for having such high endurance, for being there, for all the lunch meals you've never failed to make every weekend, for being so understanding, and for always not giving up when the going gets tough. I know I am sometimes hard to handle, but you know I really cherish every bit of effort you've put in to compromise and deal with me. Whaddaya know, we aren't so bad after all. :)N most of all - with autumn already in full swing - thank you sooh much for watching my fave cartoon (repeatedly on the yearly basis): It's the Great Pumpkin, Charlie Brown , w/ me tirelessly - can't wait for the next Fall to watch it again w/ you.... ;)
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"Chill" has been my favourite word all these while BUT, it has been particularly HOTTER these days. I use this word almost everyday now. On Wed when work was pretty tough...I told myself to chill....yesterday after work arriving back in H-town for the weekend I decided to chill, right now n tmorw......I feel like chillaxin' doin' nuthin'...darn...am I becoming a boring person or what?..HEEEELPP....LOL!!
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To G, I learnt this week that to err or have erred is only human. But sometimes when you make mistakes, you can never turn back again. Even if you tried hard enough, they'd never be the same again. Scary innit? Sigh...welcome to reality........

Lately, dunno why but almost everyday...I have been receiving news that pains the heart..........

I can to the extreme feel how they felt.............

To dear CSP who just lost her dad last Friday....I'm really, really sorry to hear.....my thoughts n prayers r w you n fam.....your dad was a fighter...he has been fighting really hard all these while....I know he is in good hands now....may he rest in peace....

I want to share 2 Timothy 4:7 - when I thought about your dad.....

I have fought a good fight, I have finished my course, I have kept the faith

to Hun's mom

to VNGal's dad....

to KL's dad....

to my neighbor's husband,

to my uncle....

to LH's grandma,
to my neighbour's husband
I'm praying for a speedy recovery....and hope they fight with all their might

I would love to see them get well :)

Things that are reallieeeeeeeee starting to tick me off big time:
1. Last minute decisions....

2. Telling me things only at the last possible second........

3. Unthoughtfulness - Having me to point things out to your face before you actualli get the big picture....


LOL..but I know, I know Babe - you put up w/ my crazieeeeeeness a whole lotz as well...it'z a part of life and growing together.....


WE made it! Congratulations to us both!!! Muaks....XOXOXO

Never Give Up...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OSRj7JqURjc&feature=related

It has certainly made me see,
that things change, circumstances change, people change.
I am not the person I once visualized myself to be,

But that surely doesn't make me any less happy,

It doesn't mean I have achieved less but merely means that I've achieved something different.

Life as is now definitely means responsibilities,

and difficult choices and decisions.
Decisions that involve sacrifices, that sometimes,
I am too afraid to make.

As for me, I am going to keep seeking
Until I find God's plan for me...
So long I don't give up, I'll get find it one day.
It may not be today,
But I will find it one day...

When everything has come to an end, the daily routines awaits you. I am losing and loving at the same time. Life's full of contradictions.........so does my heart........

Standing strong.........

I know that I'm being prepared for something new....

With you - I will never be alone............

Just like I thought..............

Everything that happen has it's own cause.

Every choice that is made has it's reason behind it.

And for every obstacle I face, its either I got to learn to accept or learn to lose.

And for that, I will learn to accept because it is worth everything for....

Overall - I don't have to change a bit, just to be myself.......

Facing the world again w/ a big fat smile....

If you dwell on the past and worry about the future, then you will struggle with the present

I've so much to say and so much to tell. Yet, I can't seem to string up everything in perfect sentences, let alone paragraphs to describe everything.

Life has been, pretty hard.....Nevertheless, I'm trying my best to keep the spirits up. It's a misunderstanding and it's impossible for me to clarify it.

Though it's kind of sad that I've yet to hang out w/ old friends as we're all too busy with our own lives. I'm keeping my hopes up, hopefully being back in Houston for the weekend would do me some good.

Work? If it wasn't for the awesome ppl I worked with....I'd probably die out of my lack of enthusiasm to do anything. Alright - I got to stop whinning........

When turmoil happens, one should always remain a temperate response & collected. It annoys me when people switch sides so easily. They're so easily influence by other's or so much so they just get confused. No stand or opinion of their own at all. How could they grow then? They would not be able to learn to see things from different perspectives....and aspects....

Gossiping about someone who secretly helped you before without you even knowing - is totally unkewl... Sigh! I don't know how to let out my frustration ....Bah!

Thanks for those who stood beside me with the long night phone calls...............

What to do what to do what to do?

I'm tangled up with issues that I perceived as endless.

But, come to think about my issue, it isn't as bad as like world crisis or sad natural disasters...........So yea, I tried not brooding too much over it.

Another thing to lift up mood a little, always have the mindset that 'I'm not alone or facing problems alone'.

Just don't keep thinking that why is it me, why am I getting it instead of some other people.

Coz' the fact is, I am not the only one who are experiencing the same kind of situation. Might not be exactly the same.......but pretty much similar.........Special thanks to Liz-ma sis, Jen, sister J, S, M, L, R for being there for me.......u guyz r God sent!"

He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds."Psalm 147:3

Leave Out All The Rest....

I'm strong on the surface

Not all the way through

I've never been perfect

But neither have you.........

whenever i get this way,

i just don't know what to say

why can't things like they used to be....

i'm not sure what this could mean

i do admit to myself that i've hurt u....

we'd never see just what were meant to be

every time i see us falling

i get down on my knees and pray

i'm waiting for that final moment

u'll say the words that i can't say..........