The straightforward question, "Where will this relationship head to?" resulted in a honest confession of our relationship and where we both were. Seeing the way he was around me all the time, I knew instinctively that he harbored genuine feelings for me.

That day I was totally an emotional wreck. Using my "clouded judgement" as a crutch, I bravely (perhaps foolishly) texted him back (his prior text messages were irrelevant to the subject I was about to bring up) with the question. With his long-winded reply, I could sense his excitement mixed with anxiousness. I know, I know, I probably shouldn't have handled it the way I did it. Call me a wimp with no balls. However I was confident of what he would say and I had to say to him as well. Eventually we had a two-hour long conversation over the phone.

I love talking to him over the phone. I love receiving his short loving text messages. We do have good chemistry.

After saying my part and having our relationship where it was sans honest confrontation, the message of "love isn't always butterflies and excitement" is true....but if we do love each other and committed to one another, we can overcome...............

The recent financial turmoil has scared even the layman investor. It's unnerving to know how much power is concentrated in the hands of so few, and how news hit home so fast. Granted it's been a long time coming, but i think no one was really prepared for the gravity of it.....

Pictures paint a thousand words....Hurricane Ike..Sept 11 - 14, 2008:

There are times when I just want to shut down and refuse to speak to anyone. It has nothing to do with depression or sorrow. It has nothing to do with stress or personal issues. It's just that, I like being by myself.I grew up pretty much alone throughout my life, even though I have a loving family. I have grown to enjoy reading a book on a bus, gazing into nothingness and think about things that didn't matter. I love the time I spend with myself, with nature, with the cold air or the hot breeze, the sunny afternoon or the starry night. It has been a delight.

I enjoy my time alone, with myself, with my book, with my thoughts. And sometimes, I spend my Saturday evening over a glass of wine and some good music and let my mind brings me somewhere else.
I realize that often time by being quiet and all alone, I find myself. I find peace and I find answers to the many things in life. Think through things I don't usually think about when I'm out and about meeting new friends and having exciting conversations.

But out of everything, the foremost, I enjoy spending time alone with my FATHER….becz I know for sure that I am alone but never, never, never lonely…. :))))))))

I am still in recovery....and I've learned that during the time of need and my weakest moment who are my true, true friends.....

Those who are there for me, keep me company knowing that the doctor has not allowing me to drive just yet. Those who call me just to be sure I am okay and not die of starvation....and those who willingly cook and help me keep the house clean....etc....

I know I am blessed to have you: M, C, L, S, D, A, J, H, T.......I love you guys.

Thank you Lord for your blessings....as I continue to heal and resume my daily activities, slowly but surely.....YOU are an awesome GOD!!!