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When I was 5 years old, my mom always told me that happiness was the key to life....

When I went to school, they aked me what I wanted to be when I grew up...

I wrote down "Happy".

They told me I didn't understand the assignment...

and I told them they didn't understand life....

And so there goes years of learning to write, not the sort with a pencil, but the sort with pictures in your mind........

Like branches on a tree...we grow in different directions..yet our roots remain as one. Each of our lives will always be a special part of the other...........

Author Unknown..........

Can miles truly separate you from friends... If you want to be with someone you love, aren't you already there?

Richard Bach

I sorta took another challenge - relearning the classical piece that would remind me my very young life that seems such a looooooong time ago.....when the four of us were taking weekly piano lesson and hearing my mom plays her piano almost daily to soothe her soul.....Chopin Nocturne Op.9 No.2 - not an easy piece....but it's worth a try...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5ZUw78FXpG4

I understand now about mom more even after she has long gone..whatever that she did, came from her heart. What did she get in return? She now inspires me....

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I think when people reach a certain age tend to start to talk about life issues, realize the important things, curious about the meaning of life, and even question their dreams. Then they begin to ask themselves......what matters to them most. Happiness, materials, joy, fun, or staying true/real?

I pretty much have straight forward standards in ma life....I get what I put out there.....I'm what I attract.....I naturally reflect off those I surround myself with.......isn't that pretty simple and straight forward? I dun like to really say one thing - and want another...and have been known to mean what I say and say what I want as I dun like contradictions and mixed signals....say one thing and do another....I can't really command respect and but disrespecting others...or demand honesty when I am a bit shady n all....

Unfortunately in life, there will always be double standards. I have to learn more to pick ma battles, choose ma people wisely, and know when to cut ma losses......

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I was asked by someone if I know what is happening to the world now? Such a question would be a question I asked out there......do we all know what is happening to the world now?

Creator drives my oh so often complicated life and His Way is what I will always seek....when I am down, I know His love will lift me up. God speaks, in many ways. He is the Father to those who are fatherless like me.....

I had to write something truthful about myself da other day.....this is a part of the things I scribbled:

I do day dreams and even in the night. Day dreams are far more enjoyable than nightmares.
I am impulsive feeler by heart, wanderer who wonders most of the time
I wanna travel around the world to see and experience the wonders of a Father’s love.
I am a child of God who enjoy the gifts of life from her Heavenly Father.
I do enjoy the people around me, the wonderful people that I met from around the world; nevertheless I enjoy being alone most.
And most of all - I hv written this on one of my previous entries....I used to fear change. Now, I have gotten used to it. Nothing is permanent only His love is forever.

"May God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.”

I'm praising the Lord - that I'm adjusting so very well w/ the recent project change....God's timing is always perfect...I don't even bother to question HIM anymore....bcz I am sooo amazed by HIS greatness each and every day... :))

Last week, I went to a Gun show as yawl know besides promoting the 2nd Amendment, I also went nuts buying 5 packages - super yummy Cheese-n-Jalapenos and Venison Jerkies...the Jerkies are so yummy - n most importantly they have NO MSG - oh yeah! I tried the veal and the buffalo jerkies - but didn't like 'em much - they are a bit too dry....so here I am chewin' jerkies n shootin' ma gun....Ha!

I read A's blog earlier - about K....I am quoting straight from A's writing that really touch ma' heart....., this is what he wrote: I am reminded of a saying…”People will reveal their true character by how they treat someone who can do nothing for them,” You have all revealed yourselves to be of fine character, and have renewed my faith in humanity. Thank you.

Yeah - reading Pray for Katy daily, I can definitely relate to what A wrote...I too believe that there are true friends - w/ good, genuine heart....after all we all are supposed to be brothers and sisters in Christ......I'm still bringing the Hayes family in my prayer - each night...I only hope yawl still do too.

Well, we all know that the 1st day of Spring is still days away - the 20th of March...but a visit of ma close friend from ATL - had created a 'lil garden of herbs: rosemary, mint, cilantro, basil, thyme, oregano and veggies: , Heirloom tomatoes, jalepeno, peppers, bell-peppers, etc....and he also got me my fave color flower: purple senetti - all in my back yard deck....I hv been sitting on my deck enjoying them....thank uuuuuu - come n visit soon!! Can't wait for all to really grow....

Lastly, I watched the movie: Letters-to-God based on the true story for Tyler - a kid w/ cancer....the movie was so touching n I highly recommended to others....it is made by the same folks who did Facing the Giant n Fireproof....

G'night...n T - we got to hang out soon - game night: Fact or Crap & Imagine If.....

Went to a gun show at GRB - n finally did it - got me smtg I should've gotten a loooooooooooooong time ago........

A sister in need - please help ....
This is the channel 39 News about her:

http://39online.com/news/local/kiah-new-mom-strep-a-story,0,3626598.story

Facebook:

http://www.facebook.com/group.php?v=info&ref=mf&gid=343063085090

Blog about her by her husband Al Hayes:

http://katyupdate.wordpress.com/

Help Hayes family:

http://www.aserenityspa.com/

I can remember her cheerful smile - and I know Al - her husband, he is M's business partner....

Her name is mentioned in my prayer every night...she is my sister in Christ.........

Be a blessing, I will bless thee - says the Lord....and I am blessed by HIM each and everyday...then will I give myself wholly to live for others and to be a blessing??? Yes, my Lord - I absolutely will....

It happens - again n again - just when I started to get used of my life back n forth btw P.A n Hou....March 1, I will be back again in Houston - to start in a new project...

Life is ever-changing - I dunno about my future - but I know the ROCK I can stand and rely upon....

We r in business of makin' baby ;)

It happens in life - when ppl u know - become ppl u knew....
When u can walk right past someone as if they were never a big part of ur life...
How u used to be able to talk for hours - holdin' on to each other's dreams - but now - how u can berely even look at 'em...n they become just another stranger....

I dreamt about my recently passed uncle - 2 months already since his demise....wow...n I just realized I haven't checked on my a aunt n my other uncle n his fam....I woke up n put a note in my head to do that this evening..............

I had a chilaxin' Fri @ home - my home is really sweet home for me....I really do enjoy being here....anyway - last night I was making some gumbo for some friends...in the midst of stiring to make the roux...I suddenly have this light bulb that went off in my head - bright idea - not so new....but it'z something I haven't been thinking about for a while now....seeing people living life around me - it makes me wonder where have I been.....wait! I know where I've been in 2009 - "hiding" in that town for work - my 2009 life is consumed by work n renovating the house...however 'tis year it'z gonna be different...I'll take time for myself - just having those alone "me" time to read a book. Yes, reading - not listening to an audio book or surfing the net....

I will of course - travel more...........

Winter can be depressing - but it definitely makes the warmth of a hug super - xtra cozzzzieee...

Babe - I had a great time in Wash - DC, we made it another year ;-)


The movie: A Good Year - every time I watch this film - it makes me want to pack my bags & leave for Provence - be a waitress my whole life, only stopping for harvest time...LOL....



2010 - Will it be a year of dreams for u?


Haiti Earthquake victims - Pray and be thoughtful to those in need... :(

Ma 2009 Life....

January

New Year in Sydney - stopped over Singapore to visit my uncles & fam, and my brother.... I missed the flight SQ - Singapore - Houston via Moscow...what a dork! Ended up paying SGD200.00 to get to the next day flight...I was sooo glad to have a spot available...I was willing to pay any amt...

I wouldn't know that was the last time I would see my uncle.....

Took up a new hobby: learnin' to shoot a "real" gun :))...

February

My "group" got smaller - workload got bigger...busy busy busy

Still shootin' 9 mm gun...

March

A lot of bdaes - My niece, my bro, J.P, VB, MG, MPG.... Still shootin'...

April

Audit in Baton Rouge - what a mess....!

House sitting for a dear friend - Mischa was a lot of fun!

May

Found out that my work location would not be in Hou anymore....

June

I was one year older - a clean slate - moved to that new work location!

My bro got a new house sooo I would be moving to the TH...a place in Houston I would call "home"...

July

Cleaned - cleaned - cleaned took away 26 yrs of junkies from the TH....yuckies!

Back n forth "THAT PLACE" n Houston on the weekend...getting adjusted...

Audit in Tulsa, OK - stayed over at my cousin's place - enjoyed the little kiddos...

bro's bdae.... :)

August, September, October

My Tulsa Cousin n fam came to Houston in Aug- but the youngest kiddo got really sick :(

The other bro's bdae...learned that he's "involved" - cute :) finally!

My life was at a halt....everything is all about the renovation of the TH....stressed out beyond control....sooo much money, time, etc...I was in the brink of going insane..LOL!!

September - moved frm the apt to the TH - TH was 89% or so completed....aaaaarghhhh!!!!! October - ma' nephew's bdae...

November

A blessing n a sad month.... God's blessing came to me - ma' ATL buddy: Flying Drummer - came to the rescue...he fixed EVERYTHING - I meant EVERYTHING n built a brand new deck for the back patio for me!!!! He did ALL sooo professionally - unbelievably - as a GIFT! Praise the LORD!!!

But in the midst of everything a bad news came from my bro in Singapore regarding my Uncle's accident....he was hospitalized fighting for his life....

A visitor from overseas came n I really enjoyed being able to show that person around....

About 3 weeks after his fall - my uncle passed on - on the eve of Thanksgiving.... :(

A different type of Thanksgiving Day – lots of praising n thankfulness in the midst of grieving…

December

A short month for work....2 weeks audit in Houston...

I had to cancel my JKT trip to be w my bro n fam - my sis-in-law parents' 50th wedding celebration.... :(

Christmas Eve - left for A****n...'til the 26th - I had a great time :))

New Year in a freezing-snowy-city....perhaps I will be seeing the rare "Blue Moon"...

My New Year's Resolutions:

*Keep my focus to what or who is most important: HIM - JC!

*Back to serve in a Ministry

*Get a better grip on my totally random anger issue

*I leave this one unwritten - as the Lord to know the desire of my heart ;)

*Continue to exercise n eat healthy

*Travel to ***** God willing

*Buy a gun

*Play more piano

*Bless others as I have been blessed :))

Random stuff 2009:

"Climategate"

Jesse Ventura on Tru TV

Ron Paul

Lamentations 3:22-24

The unfailing love of the LORD never ends! By his mercies we have been kept from complete destruction. Great is his faithfulness; his mercies begin afresh each day. I say to myself, "The LORD is my inheritance; therefore, I will hope in him!"

saw this online - wow super cute - party furrrfect for 2010

Spike Egg-Nog - Kahlua n Canon in D

I took the challenge to master Johann Pachelbel's Canon in D on the piano....so my Christmas is consumed by cold weather - n practice, practice, practice....

I learnt how to read, write music, and play the piano at the early age - I was actually enrolled in Yamaha School of music...however, today - I am a bit rusty in reading the notes....

It'z getting there - Pachelbel - I will get the piece right! Below is pg 1 of 2:

The Toughest Christmas - VOID

I could not find a valid reason to be unhappy with my current lifestyle and situation......It'z kinda weird bcz to begin with, I am a fairly contented person. I count my blessings. I rejoice in the simplicity of life. Sipping coffee. Smelling the rain. Feeling the wind. Enjoying the crisp weather. Writing. Reading. Praying. Walking/jogging at T.H. park. Enjoying my newly renovated TH. Yet, I am consumed by this unexplainable void in my life. A huge empty space waiting to be filled. But with what? Maybe, I should learn not to entertain my emotions too much....just knowing The Joy of the Lord is My Strength.....

Went w/ ma' dearie to the Festival of Carols
Featuring: Cynthia Clawson

with: Tallowood Adult Choir and Orchestra

Jubilation Bell Choir

It was soooo great....Christmas is definitely here............

Father God...I love You....